Like many women I constantly struggle with my self image and confidence level, which often takes a toll on my participation in the dating game.
There have been few times in my life that I look back on and feel like I was in great shape and confident, but honestly even then I had a bad self image. I always thought I was fat. So it’s no surprise now that I am twice the size and struggling.
I always tell guys that I am talking to online and interested in meeting that “I look better in pictures” and in my eyes I really do. I only put out those images in which I feel I look good, but in reality I am not so sure all the time.
This post is not meant to be a pity party, nor am I looking for a bunch of comments to boost my ego…I’m processing my thought publicly because this is what is on my mind…and I have a date tomorrow night.
I fear that I am not going to meet his expectations in person and that I am not going to be his type – body type. This is horrible and really, what do I care? So be it! No one is perfect, it’s who you are on the inside that counts, and all those things you hear that are supposed to make you feel better, right?
From what I know of this guy he works out regularly and takes good care of his body. I’ve also learned a bit about the women in his past and this has me concerned because I know I can’t compete. It’s just not me.
I’m going to try and keep an open mind and not put too much pressure on myself about all of this, because I know I’m a fun chick, I’m cute, witty and I get along well with most everyone. I do have a lot to offer, but to be quite honest I’m not really sure I am looking to offer it all up right now.
Here’s hoping tomorrow brings the start of a new friendship at least and we can go from there!
I would like to know what my readers biggest hangups are in these pre-first date situations. I know I am not alone, so please feel free to share a bit in the comments!
Oh and P.S. if you read my previous post on The Execution of a First Date you may have picked up on the fact that I am skipping step Six