Do you ever look back on past dates/crushes/boyfriends and wonder “What the HELL was I thinking!?” … or better yet… “What did I ever see in him!?”. One day everything is all lovey-dovey and puppy dogs and the next you realize this guy is a total loser!!
I do this often (most often about one guy in particular) and I just can’t see what it was that I was so attracted to… even now that we’ve been over for a long while I can’t help myself to think about how he is SO not the man I thought I was falling for at the time.
I guess I was unknowingly in need of someone at the time he happened to come along and he somehow fit somewhat into some mold of sorts, so much so that my heart and my mind got together behind my back and decided they would force him in like a puzzle piece that just almost works? Well, it sure didn’t.
But isn’t it silly to waste thoughts on what once was… in actuality he wasn’t who I thought he was, he wasn’t who anyone thought he was, nor do I believe today that he is what he makes himself out to be for others, but that’s for them to find out on their own.
I can only imagine we think about those past #FAILs as a way to train our heart and mind to recognize what was wrong for us, what we need to stay far away from going forward and to keep these mental mugshots of the mistakes fresh so that we don’t make the same one twice.
He’s kinda like Broccoli. I once loved and devoured it every chance I got, but now… it makes me ill just to think about it!
Very random post. I know… but we’ve all been there once or a million times, right?
