That is me for quite some time now and I feel as though I am getting worse with time and singularity.
I enjoy being single. It’s nice to have all this time to myself after many, many years of there always being someone else to consider. I’m pretty selfish in general so naturally I’m quite content having me all to myself.
So why do I keep feeling like I need to date or find a man to share a part of my life with? Do I really need one? More importantly do I really want one? Is what I am feeling a result of society’s influences on me? I swear it’s like being a teen who feels the need to rock the latest designer jeans … ‘cus all her friends are doing it.
True, not ALL my friends are dating or in relationships, but those who are seem to be more prevalent to me then those who aren’t and I do feel a bit envious of them.
It would be so nice to have someone around to hang out and watch a movie with, to cook for/with, to enjoy a night out with occasionally, to plan adventures with, to take little day trips into the city for a walk in the park, or visit a museum, or go to a concert, maybe a drive to the shore or a scenic ride in the country?
All of that sounds so nice, but I still can’t decide if I really need it. What’s worse is I haven’t the slightest idea how to find it or maybe I just don’t have the patients to wait for someone to fill the position so I bounce between wanting and not wanting it for myself.
Am I wrong in thinking when the time is right it will all fall in to place? When the right one comes along I will just know it? Or are there a specific set of actions I should be taking in my life to put me on the right track?
XOXO Diva
