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August 19th, 2010

Divorce is not a Dirty Word

Past generations may disagree, but it’s 2010 people and I’m here to tell you differently.

Divorce (IMO) is reset button. It’s a chance for me to build a better life for myself, to learn to be independent, to grow as an individual as opposed to as a “couple”, an opportunity to find new happiness, it’s freedom from “us” and now it’s All About ME!

Sure I had it easy because my Ex and I are still friends and our split was for the most part quite amicable. And I realize in many cases it may not seem so much “greener grass”, but for me it is… or at least this is how I choose to perceive it.

So why should I be subjected to feeling pitied for? Why should I be made to feel guilty for celebrating this milestone in my life?

It’s time society change their views. I am not a victim. I don’t need your sad faces when I mention I’m divorced. I am embracing my decision to end the life I started and begin anew.

Perhaps I just need to develop a new term or hybrid of the word to make my situation more acceptable to others. Would that help?

Suggestions are welcome in comments!
/rant.

June 14th, 2010

I Guess I’m Just Happy

One year ago my life started over. I chose a new path for my future and embarked on a mission to find a new happiness.

Over the weekend I stepped back into my old my old life for a moment…I revisited my old home, which I left behind seven months ago.

I’d been meaning to make time to go back and pick up a few items I’d left behind, but each time I found an excuse not to. I guess I felt like it would always be there for me even though I know it wont.

In my head there is a piece of me that feels like I am living in that life still. When I think of Home… when I speak of “home”… that is the place my mind sees.

I wonder how much longer before I feel at “home” in my new dwelings…Will I ever? Perhaps never. Maybe I am not supposed to, maybe this is an intermidate between homes and I should continue to look forward to the future and what comes next.

I guess I’m just happy …
That I finally took the time to go back.
That now I might be able to find some closure.
That I can look to a future of my choice.
That I have a place of my own, despite it not feeling a home.
That in the past year I have grown to learn so much about who I am, just me, and continue to do so every day.
That I have all that I do despite all the mistakes I have made in my past and the life I left behind.

“I’m not like them but I can pretend
The sun is gone but I have a light
The day is done but I’m having fun
I think I’m dumb or maybe just happy
Think I’m just happy…”
-Nirvana, Dumb